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“Where have you been for anybody when they needed you outside of it being emotionally beneficial to you or a professional obligation?”

Well, what does one say to this?  I haven’t kept a record of altruism, that strikes me as something normal people don’t do.  So I have only my memory as an aid. Since I tend to focus on monumental failings, I don’t think it will bear an accurate record of any goodness I might have engaged in.  Of course, there is my job but you see he has that covered. Well, not quite, I don’t think obligation comes into it, I do my job because I want to be with people in their dark times and help to see them out the other side and on their way. Who can say why anyone puts themselves through the emotional mangle to do that.  I think we’re all just crazy.

And isn’t everyone selfish in their good works?  We all know the old hat about no such thing as altruism, doing good makes you feel good etc etc.  If we get a dopamine release for good and bad deeds then I really don’t know what our brains are playing at.  It’s like one of those modern parents who wants to praise and reward their child for everything it does no matter how poor the quality of the effort or results. I really don’t think we’re safe in the care of our brains, we’re a hostage to chemicals.  There must be something else regulating our existence otherwise we’d all be trapped in cycles of addiction, dependence or self destructive physical and social violence.

But what about my friends?  Do I neglect them? I probably do if I’m honest.  I like to hibernate when all the socialising and responsibility gets a bit much. My advice, such as it is, will never be what anyone wants to hear and though I have a listening ear and, in my opinion a relatively sensitive hug reflex, I’m not great at casting oil upon the troubled waters with emotionally articulate responses. Despite my cool sarcasm and the apparent unconcern with which I breeze through life, I hope they know I love them very dearly and I would do anything for each and every one of them.  Up to and including hiding the body.

I am at a loss, however, to know what to do with cabbage.  It comes with every veg box, I’m not a massive fan, it doesn’t seem particularly versatile yet it verges on decadent sinfulness to simply throw it away.  A quick Google search reveals 24.4 million hits for cabbage cake.

Problem solved.

GRPs for throwing the cabbage away before searching for cabbage cake recipes on the internet: -1

Karma points for being a bit annoying and eliciting the above quote: -1

Fitness points for eating chocolate in the warm instead of running in the cold: -1

Career points for not doing enough homework: -1

Bit of a bad day when you look at it like that.

Total so far…

  • Karma: +1
  • FRP: +50.1
  • Relationships: 0
  • Family: +2
  • Friends: +6 [Supplementary PPs: +2]
  • Career: +5
  • Fitness: -11
  • General: +5